Thanks for the feedback, I am not so frustrated today :-)  I am going to try using "Vega One" protein shake sweetened with stevia  (Canadian version of a protein shake).  It also has excellent balance nutrition properties in their formual...very good for the body.
Cal 138 / Carbs 11.4 / Fibre 6g / Sugars 1.4g  and mixing it with Almond Breeze.   I tried it before and it was yucky but they have redone they formula and the chocolate is okay.   I might order the protein shake from amazon that you are recommending.   But first give this a try see if it makes a difference.

Also made a pack with my daughter to do Jorge flat tummy routine to build some fat burning muscle.  I have been walking with her and she commented on my pace is improving.  So my goal of adding more movement is doing well...I will be hiking again this year!

Okay frustration is setting in...I have had no change since April 16  no increase no decrease.  The good part is that I am sticking to my guns and keeping away from night time eating and no sugar.   I know I it's a difficult time in my life to loose weight (peri-menopause), atleast I am not going up any more.. Which I am very grateful for....just have to keep reminding myself about that.   But really nothing!  same measurements....**sigh**... **pouty face :(  same weight..just keeps bouncing up 2 down 2.

All I can think is not enough water  and probiotics and being consistent with them...I keep forgetting them for a couple of days then back on them.  Everything with loosing weight now is so difficult.    When did it get so complicated!?

Just a quit post to say hi :-)

I am keeping up with my food journal the new book and pen are helping...I love new journals and pens I guess it reminds me of September when you get all new supplies and clothes for school.  I loved that time!

I watched Jorge's flat tummy from a post on Jorge & me...very doable. So I will add that this week  I need to build my strength back up.

Wishing you all good eating and happy blogging...I missed all of you this week I love to read all your blogs.

Yeah!  a good day

Breakfast
2pc Flax Bread w/peanut butter and tea w/ almond milk
Lunch
Salmon salad  mayo/pickle and 2 celery stalks
coffee w/soy and 2pc chocalate.
Dinner
1/2c brown rice, 1/4c peas, 2eggs (some butter & hoisin sauce)

Zevia and another piece of chocolate at work snack to keep me going....I get tired about 6pm and need a pick me up to make to the end of my shift.

I found this amazing chocolate here in BC it's by wild & sweet @ www.dcduby.com
  5pc = 10grams carbs / 4grams fibre / 0 sugars
This ones flavor is "Crunch" coffee/vanilla bean/walnut...mmmm good!
Handmade in true artisan fashion with select Origin 70% dark chocolate:  Texture artisan chocolate praline bar
no artificial sweeteners... it's all in the way they make it....amazing taste.  

Food Journal ...

Woke up today and ate first thing...I have been waking up and not eating first thing and then I don't get all my food in for the day...so today is a good day :-)   I found some bread 1 slice 2/1 so I had my old favorite tea and toast ...mmmmm good!

As soon as I get a new phone with a camera I will start putting up these products I find because being in Canada I don't always have access to the same products but I can find substitutes.

Bread Product I found is Silver Hills Mack's Flax 1 slice has 20 grams carbs and 2 sugars and 6gram fibre
Also found So Nice coffee creamer 1 TBSP(15ml)  1.5grams carbs and 0.5 grams sugars
Both products are BC products found at Save-on-Foods

Well off to eat once more before I start my shift at noon.

Food journal post
I have been food journalling for past few day;  I bought a journal that I like to carry with me and it's seem to be working - now I just have to quit having bad days...


Breakfast a handful of almonds
....then an hour later
1/2 c. brown rice with 1/4c peas and a boiled egg (butter & touch of housin sauce)
Lunch/dinner
Tuna with pickles/celery/mayo & coconut thai chicken soup and organic crackers

... today I  was scattered and short on time. So once again I didn't eat enough and I get home past 8pm so it tea and water only I don't eat past 7pm.  I wasn't feeling very well either physically or emotionally...I am just going to have a bath, go to bed and start over again tomorrow.

Hello everyone...I fell off my food journal ...so back on today.  It's been a confusing week for me emotionally and busy with furbaby sitting.  I am taking care of my oldest daughters 2 cats for the week...they're fun and they entertain each other running all night long it seems.  So sleep and routine are disturbed which cause me to  not plan my food out well and ran out of time.  Work was more stressful than usual and it got me all stressed  emotionally all this added up to me snacking in the evening once I got home at 8pm;  which I have been very good at NOT doing for a while now.   I was good and stayed away from eating too many sugars (and no white sugar or fruits) just protein and carbs but still.  I don't feel well this morning.

I find journalling so helpful;  when you right it out you can see how things effect you, then you can see triggers to avoid.  If it's just in my head and I think about it I don't see it.  

I did go for a walk with my youngest daughter last night we are getting into a routine of 2 to 3 times a week after work and I also was given a stationary bike  on Tuesday which I have started to use....both of these are helping me get my mobility back and I am hoping to start hiking this summer.

Well as I said back to it...plan my food and pack it!  drink lots of water (starting now ) and right it down and count it out.  Read my lables count my S/C no estimating :-)

Sunday! Finally :-)

Breakfast   (total s/c  3/4)
2 wasa krisp w/ peanut butter and 3/4c of cottage cheese
coffee 2/soy creamer
Lunch  (total s/c  2/3)
Kale w/roasted chicken
organic crackers 13 wheat free
Snack (total s/c  1/2)
Chiaseed pudding  w/protien powder 1/2 c.

Well this is an eye opening experience....it's my day off so since I have been posting my food journal I thought I would sit down and add the whole day; I usually just guestimate my counts on S/C;  yes I know it's bad to do that, I admitted a while ago that is my downfall I read lables yes...I just don't add...LOL.   As you can see above I haven't had dinner yet and my carb counts is already at 8 carbs.  I think I see my problem :)  I have a handle on the sugar I do pretty good at keep that down but the carbs Oh My the carbs!!   Why do I add in my head when I have menopausal brain...I can't remember where I left my phone never mind the food count all day...and no I don't have an app for that because I don't have an Iphone :)   I have been writing down quickly what I ate but I haven't been put the count beside them....I don't know why??  figured I would do it at the end of the day or something or figured I was within the range....well it doesn't work for me obviously.  I have tried gadget years ago but I don't use them.

Posting my food for all to see has helped me allot, your comments have been helpful.   Okay now I have to buckle down and really teach myself this one.  Wish me luck!  You only fail if you give up...Right! :-)

Veggies are green? really  lol  does celery in my salads count? ;-) hehehe.  I did better today I had Kale.  I love the way I do my kale.   Saturdays at work it's just me and my co-worker and we usually make food to share she loves what I do with kale so I brought that today and she pick-up a roasted chicken at the store, mmmm good.

Breakfast 
2 wasa krisp crackers w/peanut butter and coffee w/soy creamer
   I ran out of time this morning making my kale and didn't make breakfast so I improvised at work - that's what      I found in the kitchen :-)  an office full of women you can always find something in the kitchen.
Lunch 
plate full of kale with roasted chicken.
handful of fresh snow peas.
Dinner
chicken salad w/mayo/pecans/celery
tea w/creamer

24oz of water (fell off the water wagon...too busy with customers all day - Saturday's are very stressful at work; only 2 people for the busiest day of the week...go figure)

hmmm eat more??...I will try.   I'm usually not very hungry in the morning but I guess I could find something to add to breakfast maybe try that new muffin/pizza bread of Rosalie's w/fried or boiled eggs..  this set of days off then.  But for now here is my food journal:

Breakfast 
Flaxseed muffing w/pecans and butter
coffee w/soy creamer
Snack
Almonds & water
Lunch
Chicken Salad and zevia
Dinner
Imitation crab salad with seed type organic rice crackers
and I was bad today - sugar free ice cream sandwich.

food done by 5:30pm

48oz of water

Food Journaling :-)


Breakfast
Chicken Salad (celery/pecans/mayo)
10oz water
Lunch/Snack
Flaxseed muffin (chocolate with few frozen raspberries)
coffee w/almond milk and benefibre
...then off to work; when I am on the late shift 12 to 8pm my food goes a little wonky but today I managed to get my lunch in before I left which is good then I can have some almonds and coffee for a snack the eat my dinner later  at 6pm  depending how busy it is at work.
Snack
Almonds & water
Dinner
Spaghetti squash

total water today 50oz

Just quick to keep up the food journal:

Breakfast
Flaxseed muffin w/cheese and 1/2c intimation crab salad
coffee w/ almond milk
Lunch
Starbucks Tuna melt  (1/2)
water 16oz
Dinner
chicken salad w/celery and mayo
tea w/soy creamer

Home now after working till 8pm water and herbal tea

Thanks for the suggestions :-)  I will adjust accordingly.  I do find I am not as hungry as I use to be when I had sugar in my diet, and sometimes I am uninspired, but today is a good day :)

Breakfast
Flaxseed muffing with walnuts, coffee w/soya creamer (.5 sugar)
Lunch 
Spaghetti squash bird nest
Snack 
Handful of Almonds and coffee w/soya creamer
Dinner
Spaghetti squash bird nest (again I know, but it's good and I don't mind :)
Plus I made a batch so I will eat it before it goes yucky.  Next time I am going to try to freeze the batch to see how it works.

...forgot my water today :(

Evening I will probably just have water and herbal tea.  I have been pretty good with not eating past 7pm

Thanks for the comments,  don't worry I don't take them wrong way I know all of you have been there done that ..and have experienced where I am at :)  I appreciate your support.

I have to say after blogging just once and getting the support of all you wonderful women I see how important blogging is to my success.   We are really helping each other!  I was really feeling alone in my journey, I was sticking to things avoid sugar,  which I am proud of myself for doing; but the attitude was suffering and taking a dive.  Accountability, support, and a wealth of great ideas is what I get here.

Here's what I ate today...

Breakfast out with my daughter :-)
2eggs, 2link sausages, fancy red potato (small) and fried tomato, coffer w/cream

Lunch
Ice cream bar 5/2 (sweetened with Maltitol )  this also has some sucrose to it?

Dinner
Spaghetti squash egg nest..mmmm good

plus 2 Zevias and 16oz water

Oh my it's been a while since I blogged...my weight has been bouncing up and down by 3lbs very discouraging :(  I haven't given up though.  Still keeping the sugar down to below 15grams a day.  

Yesterday I started with: 

Breakfast  - Flaxseed muffin with walnuts w/butter and a coffee w/cream

Lunch - 4 wasa krisp with swiss cheeze

snack/dinner - 4 turkey sausages

drank - lots of water  (48oz)

Wasn't feeling to inspired to cook today I think I am feeling the effects of the big "M" word and since I am blogging at 1:00am because I can't sleep.  The poor sleep patterns are not helping me with weight or  with my attitude either.  Never had a problem sleeping before it's strange...figure it was best just to get up and do somethings and go and try to sleep again in a while.  But the bad attitude has been all day and most of this month.  I have things happening that challenges me but don't we all :)   Just wish I would pick myself up and get going...push through it somehow.  I read everyone's blog and you are all such strong women, I know I can do it too.

No change...but I understand why :-)  Saturday night I indulged and had a few too many cabs and sugars...red wine! and 7 layer dip with chips!  I thought I would indulge with a glass or 2.  Had a great time and I didn't reduce this week...but I didn't go up either!!!  Yeah.  Back to it without a beat.  I am doing great.  I remember before when I would fall off the wagon, that would start a week of just one more thing and one more thing than next you know you're back to eating junk and bad food choices and its been a month and you have lost all motivation.   It's so different this time;  I find this way of eating so much better for me that I simply make better food choices and I like the way I feel.  Breakfast will be a flaxseed muffin and coffee which I am looking forward to, then I will put my snacks together and head out for the day.   

I also think that because I have been dealing with my emotional stuff too I don't stuff my feeling back down, I let them process.  That has help me get to a place where self care is a  priority now I am putting myself first.  Before I didn't realize how not only did I put everybody before me, being a mom can do that to you... it the nature of the job; but I didn't have me on the list at all.   Well I am on my list now :-)

Thank you to everyone for you support!  That's the other big game changer, it helps me to stay on track and accountable: I read everyone's blog and get great ideas.   

Finally Yeah!

Well it been a difficult week and no blogging...but the good news is my body finally budged on the my weight and reduced 2 lbs.  Lost a inch of the waist.  I am very pleased :-)  I am still having struggles with writing everything down, I will keep pushing through because I am improving.  I figured it is a learned behavior and a valuable one at that, it will give me knowledge of what I am doing so I can make necessary adjustments.  One of my really bad habits is that I guesstimate what I am eating and the counts on them.  Somedays I was really under and some surprisingly over.  It didn't help that I lent my book out for someone to review to see if they wanted to get the book themselves and they kept it...I was just about to go buy another copy when they returned it.  It's a very helpful reference tool, and it made a big difference getting it back.   I am back on track and writing down what I am eating; also if I can remember I write out my proposed food plan for the next day (I find those day better) then I simply check off and put down the count as I do it...my days are sometimes a little messed up due to life's little challenges so I give myself a break and if I do it more than I don't do it I look at that as an improvement and it all good.  

I also have started walking again!  This is exciting for me since I hurt myself last November I haven't been able to walk much farther than my car without my hip and ankle buckling then I can move at all, very scary for me.  My goal is to be hiking by this summer and then my favorite winter hikes.  I love winter hikes in our local parks; its beautiful here in BC and lots of hiking.  My daughter came over and offered to come over everyday after work go with me...what a gift!  She has seen how upset I have been with my injury and needed some help to get better and to get moving...I don't know how far I can go before I get into trouble; now with someone with me I will be able to build back up my strength and confidence.  What a wonderful gift my daughter has given me.

Okay I must confess

I know it's not the Hump Day confessional but I must confess and have not been writing down what I eat.  Looks like I coming up to another week of no changes.  I have always been terrible at writing things down, I have always run into this problem.  I don't know how to change it....but I know it will help me to see how much I eat when, what , how much.   It's some kind of mental block.   The stupid thing is I have the book in my lunch bag it just never comes out at work and I'm so tired when I get home it stays there to the next day and the same cycle again till I get to the end of the work week and nothing.  I feel like I am insane!

I guess I will just have to make myself do it!  That's why I am telling you all.  Starting TODAY I am writing down what I am eating (these 2 days are my days off ) then Tuesday starts my work week.  I am signing off and going to get my book and write down what I have eaten so far today.

Thanks for listening

Still going :-)

I'm still keeping to no sugar and no wheat...even though today one of my business associate brought Krispy Cremes;  it's an offering to us to use their product...hmmmm...strange offering.  They kept trying to get me to have one...I find it strange the only thing that seems to stop them is that I said 'I can't eat wheat or sugar, it will cause me suffering for that little bite'.  I let them draw their own conclusion to that.  I do find people accept 'No Thank You' easier if you say you have an allergy or sensitivity to a food group rather than you are just choosing to eat better, interesting?   No thank you should be enough.

I tried the savory flax seed minute muffin today...hmmmm good, thank you Dawn for that suggestion.  Tomorrow I am going to make bison soup and savory muffin for lunch!  I was missing my bread with my soup but savory muffin is a great pairing for me.   I am starting to notice my pants are getting looser...Yippy Skippy Dippy! :-)

One Month complete NO Sugar

I did it!  I made it over the 30 day mark and I am still eating healthy.  I usually let myself get pulled away from my goal for lots of self sabotaging reasons by this point so I am feeling pretty good about that.  Even though I weighed myself this morning and I am actually up one pound from last week and my measurements are on down one half inch I am still going straight ahead.

I have decided this is the way I will eat no sugar and no wheat ( my body can't digest wheat well )  there are so many things I can eat and this is a learning process.  My body is also peri-menopause so weight loss can be a challenge and takes determination.  I feel all premenstrual so that is probably why no real change this week.

I have notice that I have been going back to my old ways of forgetting to eat, last week Monday I even prep'd all my food put into containers then sat down and had a cup of tea then went off to bed.  Then realized the next day I forgot to eat my dinner ...I was so focused on making sure I had my food ready for the week I didn't eat when I was cooking it  I had breakfast that day and a small snack but that was it.  That's what started me down this road years ago...skipping meals!  yikes!  I use to get out of bed running and didn't stop until 2 or 3 in the afternoon for food...then a bad choice usually a latte and a so called healthy muffin...lol.   So this week I am going to take my book with me everywhere I go and write down what I am eating.  I am hoping this will do two things for me.  First help me learning the values (carbs and sugars) of my choices and second to make sure I am eating regularly.   The note book is also necessary do to brain fog, which I am hoping will lift completely soon :-)  I started taking the Reslina and I have noticed my energy is increasing.

Well off to make breakfast :-)   Flaxseed muffin...today with walnuts and a mapleline ( it's maple extract ) I love the combinations of flavors.